Currently Playing Confessions By Usher see related

Okay so I'm in a so-so mood.  I have been having this incredible headache for the past 2 days and I want it to go away. It does go away for sometime, but then it comes back which makes me mad because I just wanna be able to sit without having a construction worker living inside my head.

Today was a pretty interesting day. I spent like the whole day calling my dad to get my money from him and when I finally got in touch with him, he only gave me $10!!!!  What in the world will I be able to do with $10 but put it in church?? I know I should be a little more realistic, but it bothers me when my dad acts as though he doesn't care about me. Lately, I have been telling him what's been on my mind about our relationship thinking that would change things, but I guess I was wrong. Or maybe I'm being too impatient and should for God to handle it. I think that's what it is......I'll just wait for God....

I know you're probably wondering why I'm back in th dorm so early on a Saturday. Well, me and Tommy got into a small argument and I didn't feel like being bothered with him anymore. And I came back. His new job, which he works the late night shift, is really changing our relationship. I realize that I at least see him twice a week because of church, I would still like to talk to him and ask him how his day was and actually carry on a small conversation. I mean whenever I wanna talk to him during the day, he's sleeping. Whenever I go to work out, dinner, or try to do homework, that's when he wants to talk. We have at least found common ground by deciding he stop by the dorm because campus is on his way to work. But other than that, our schedules are always conflicting and we can never find a good time to talk. I am getting so frustrated with this situation. I mean the job is like the best thing for him, and I'm very proud of him for getting the job, but I guess I'm being selfish.....

How about in the middle of me typing this, the hall fire alarm went off. This is like the 3rd time this has happened, but it has happened more often this semester. I don't remember hearing about any occasions where the alarm went off last semester. What's so different???

I am having such a disappointing day.....what else could happen before the night ends????? Maybe I should continue to listen to my music to help me mellow out......

P.S. Don't forget to set your clocks a hour ahead.....

Currently Playing Thank God I Found You By Mariah Carey see related

- Listening to the remix version with Joe and Nas

Hey guys.....it's been a minute. I kinda sorta have been busy this week with homework and other stuff like that. But this week is nothing compared to next week. Although next week will be a 3-day week, I have 3 tests and a quiz, not to mention other homework.  I will be so happy when Wednesday night comes.

I feel really good about a lot of stuff going on in my life right now. For example, let me show you what Aubrey put in her journal about us:

"renease, tondrea, brittani, danielle- i love you guys TO DEATH!! this was meant in no way to have anything to do with you guys. i don't ever wanna lose you guys or drift away from ya'll. i have meant some amazing people through the four of you, and i want you to be able to say that about me. you guys aren't boring or "25 yr. olds"... you are my bestest friends and i love you. (brittani, you better be sayin it back in your head!) don't think i was judging you or analyzing your life because i wasn't... i was analyzing mine. i wuv ya'll!!"

See how much I'm loved by someone!! It makes me feel really good that I have made a difference in someone's life. Thanks Aubs for posting that!!

Ben and Kent, I feel, will be like my really good guy friends before we graduate from Belmont. Although we mess with them about "girlfriends," they are like the sweetest guys and would beat another guy up if he messed with us.

I am so happy I got my apartment for next year. Aubrey and I will be roommates again (Yeah!! ) We got an apartment in Bruin Hills right next door to Tondrea and Danielle. So, next year will be so much fun, I'm sure.

I'm also excited about starting my Nursing classes next semester. I really have to sit down and plan my classes out because I'mm trying to do a dance minor as well, hopefully it will happen, according to God's will.

Well, I am about to go to Taco Bell for some food. YUM!!!!! Holla back!!!

Lately, I have been noticing a lot of stuff. After reading other people's journals, I have noticed that everyone is having problems with college. Either they're wanting to transfer, they're having problems with someone they thought was their friend, to have so much more on their plate, or their life has changed so drastically since high school.

I feel as though everyone is having a problem adjusting to college life except for me. Granted, last semester was an incredibly rough time for me, I have learned to get past everything, and enjoy my life for right now.

Everyone is worrying about so much stuff, but if they realize all they have to do is to give it to God, then everything will okey dokey hokey pokey (in the words of Brittani )!

It seems to me that everyone, including myself at one point in time, is having problems with themselves. Yeah, we all may blame our disappointments and frustrations on other things, but really, we are the ones that are causing everything. If we just take time to let things flow and not worry and stress over them before hand, then we'd be set for life.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, that to whomever readss my journal and sees this entry, I hope that they get inspired to change.....change the sad into happy, and the worry into laughter. Now, that we are in college, are lives have changed forever, we are now considered young adults and we must take on more responsibilty. Nothing will be the same as it was in high school: you won't have as many friends, you may become a little routine, and you definitely won't get as involved. College is the place where You find YOU. You can't do 50 million things like you did in high school; it's just not possible, especially with concentrating on a major.

So, live life, love it, and enjoy it!!!!!!

P. S. I'm sorry if I went out of the norm by being a little philosophical today. It's just that I felt I had to express this feelings because I know so many friends of mine (high school and college) who needed to read these words. Believe me, my next entry will be my crazy, goofy self again.

Lata playas!!!!

This entire week has been pretty exciting. The whole week, starting Sunday, we all have been doing stuff to celebrate Aubrey's birthday. So, she can't say that her birthday this year wasn't the best ever.....no one would possibly believe her. Everything from dinner at my mom's house, to roller skating on Friday night, this week has been a blast.

I realize that it has been a while since I wrote anything down. Ever since we got back from Spring Break, the work load, at least for me, has picked up tremendously. For example, in April, I have 4 papers due!!!  So, more than likely, I will get very stressed in a little while. I do this every year, right after Spring Break.....it's almost like a ritual.

Today, we did the American Diabetes Association walk through Nashville Zoo. It was fun because we got to see the animals and get convo credit at the same time. The only bad part was that it was hot and it started late. Oh yeah, and the food wasn't too good...

Well, I guess I'm gonna go and get comfortable and work on my homework. (I hate school so much....)

Currently Reading Understanding Human Behavior and the Social Environment With Infotrac By Charles Zastrow, Karen K. Kirst-Ashman see related

Today, thanks to so many important people in my life, I have realized a lot about myself. I'm not that good at expressing my feelings to others. Even my mom and my boyfriend wish I could tell them how I feel about things, but sometimes I feel like I can't. I also realized that I let whatever that's bothering me get to me really easy. I realize I have so much to work on; I just hope that God gives me the strength to become a much better person.

Although I had so many frustrations yesterday, I feel a lot better today. Let me just tell you that I am so pissed off that Yoanna won instead of Mercedes on America's Top Model.  I wanted Mercedes to win because as a person that is fighting with lupus AND wanting to go into a high-demand career such as modeling is a great person in my eyes.

Anywho, I'm a little tired.....so I think I'm gonna go to bed now.

"The longer you hold on to stress and frustration, the longer you lose out on a blessing from God."- Tommy

See my baby can be very deep and profound!!!!